This is just for me, so I don't forget...again.






 

was pretty good.  

Well, let me amend - everything but the sports part of the weekend was pretty good.  My Rangers were knocked out of the playoffs at home on Saturday 5-4.  I wish Ottawa the best of luck in thrashing the Sabres.  Go Sens!  Tenn played a double-header against 'Bama on Saturday in softball and swept them.  Monica Abbott broke Cat's total strikeout record.  Doesn't matter.  Cat is still, by far, a better pitcher.  BOO Monica, BOO!  Liverpool lost to Fulham...to Fulham!  I mean, it doesn't matter because we'll still finish top 4 no matter what but honestly, Fulham.  A few good things are the UCI won the Men's NCAA volleyball championship 3-1.  Go Anteaters!  Also, the Yanks had a good series against the Mariners and the Rocket is indeed coming home.  So there's that.

Besides the sports, the weekend was fairly uneventful.  No, I did not get to my fics.  Don't ask why.  I don't know why.   I think I'm having trouble deciding how to approach Maggie and Bianca.  I just don't know what to do about Binks.  I'm working on it.  I miss writing.  No, we didn't watch any more Gilgamesh or Gunslinger Girl.  I didn't play MLB 2K7 at all.  I played GTA III.  That's it.  I read some fic.  We watched A LOT of sports.  But...Girltrash!  I do believe I have talked about it on here...maybe.  Angela Robinson is doing these short webisode types with several actresses involved in lesbian film/tv including Gabrielle Christian and Mandy Musgrave.  Just discovered that Amber Benson (squee) is also in it.  Anyway, check the trailer.  We may finally get some decent Gabby/Mandy lip action...it just won't be on South.  Yeah, don't get me started on South.  I've just decided I'm not going to talk about it anymore.  But Girltrash...I can't wait for her to start posting the webisodes.  Just sad that Jordana Brewster had to pull out but hey, getting a network TV spot...I get that.

Um, a few notes.  I miss Heather...yes, already.  I miss Liz.  I've missed Liz forever.  Now Eden's gone and taken the scary Rita character with her.  But my BAM...my poor BAM.  Yes, I'm also annoyed about South.  I can't help it.  I thought it last season and I just feel the circular answers from Tom, Gabby, and Mandy add fuel to the thought that there is pressure from the network to scale back the lesbian content...what little was left by season 2's end.  Eh, that's all I've got though.  I called it last season.  Hell, I called it after watching the season 1 ending kiss.  So now all that's left is to wait and see.  I love the girls though.  They've always been very supportive of the story, and in return, I'll support them in keeping up with their careers.  However, I won't continue to watch the show if they choose to go the route of downplaying (code for erasing) the lesbian content even more than they already have.  I miss Burst Angel.  I want to read the manga.  I want the OVA to be released here.  I want to know if Funimation is considering another series.  I think I'll focus my energy and attention on these sorts of things.  They take up time and keep me occupied.  I don't mind so much not having the PS3 when I've got all these other things to focus on.  Yeah yeah, writing would do that too.  I'm going to sort it.  I am.  I've picked my ship.  Now I just have to determine how in the hell I'm going to fix the mess we've been left with.  I think that will be my plan for the week, get some idea of how to fix this and where it needs to go to accomplish the happy ending I want for these girls.

Oh, and Al and I, we're great.  But then you probably already knew that didn't you?


 

So I think I'm going to close the book on Bianca.  Hand me the brick and the trash bag.  I think I'm just going to drop her in the Atlantic.  Today, she and Zoe conspired, all giggly and middle school-like to spend lots of time together in London and Paris.  Bianca wants to take Zoe to all her favorite Parisian haunts.  They are going to see each other, blah blah blah.  Drivel.  Brick.  Trash bag.  Maggie, please for the love of cake, go fuck a lovely Parisian chick because Bianca doesn't deserve you.   You are a hot hot chick.  Go find someone who will love you, appreciate you, not take you for granted, and not run at the first sign of trouble.  You deserve it.  And if you see podBianca and Zoe out and about in Paris, feel free to flaunt your new, totally hot, girlfriend.  Gratuitous acts aren't frowned upon nearly so much in France...

However, now that I've gotten that out of my system, I do plan to fix this.  I actually feel quite inspired to write fanfic again.  My plan is quite grand in scale and scope.  None of my ships worked out.  None of them.  I'm going to fix it.  I'm going to write a story for each of them that ends happily if it KILLS me...and it might.  I love angst and honestly, I don't know that all of them would work out in the end.  But I'm going to find a way to make it so.  These girls deserve a chance at happiness and since their original writers fucked it all to hell (or never even gave them a shot) I'm going to do it.  I'm not saying I plan to write fluff.  I don't write fluff.  There will be angst and tons of it.  I can't very well fix the mess of Bianca and Maggie I've been left with without it.  And Buffy and Faith?  Without angst?  And violence?  Yeah right.  And Sam and Brooke?  Dear god that will be ugly and painful.  As to Spencer and Ashley...I don't even know.  That book isn't closed yet.  I need to get back to that fic.  I don't know though...I'm pretty sure it might not end happily.  I need to think about it.  I guess that's the thing.  When I think about all my ships, I don't honestly know that all of them would be endgame for each other.  Bianca and Maggie, I feel completely 100% certain they are endgame.  Honestly, Buffy and Faith, if they ever figure it out, would probably be endgame.  Sam and Brooke, I love these girls.  I think they could make it work once they got past their own issues.  Spencer and Ashley, I think I've let the second season jade me.  And they are so fucking young ya know?  It's hard to know what would happen when they went off to uni or whatever.  I know, I know...Sam and Brooke were in high school too.  But they were so well developed.  Honestly I think they could make it work because both parties would really want it in the end.  I'm not sure about Spencer and Ashley.  I just don't know them well enough as characters.  Well, that's not quite true.  I thought I knew them pretty well, then the writers completely changed everything in season two.

But there's the grand plan.  Fix the mess with fiction.  Someone is getting a happy ending damn it!  And maybe, after I fix my big four, I'll work on Kaylee and Inara.  Lots of potential there.  And Jo and Meg...really, don't even get me started.  It's so strange that I want to make people happy.  I really have gotten soft...but angst damn it!  There will be lots of it before there is happiness.

So I guess...I'll post my work here maybe.  I need to do character analysis and figure out where all my girls are now and where I want them to head.  I actually started this last night with Buffy and Faith.  I can't write them if I don't know them.  Buffy and Faith, I think I know them fairly well.  But Joss is adding to the canon with the season 8 comics so who knows what will happen.  One thing about me, I do like to stay within canon as much as possible unless I'm writting a complete AU.  But I'll post my character and relationship analysis here.  Could be interesting...maybe.

This is going to be completely random, I can already tell.

First, I'm in the process of tagging this fucker.  God, why do I have to ramble on about so many things in each entry?  I just keep having to make new tags...and I haven't even used half of them yet.  I just know the stuff is there, waiting.  So, I'm going to be working on tagging for...awhile.  It's not fun and I should've done it from the start, I know.

Second, what the hell is the point of a drabble?  I mean, 100 words to capture any sort of story, not going to happen.  I admit, I have run across a few that are just capturing one moment and they've been nice. Still, 100 words?  I'm a short story fan myself but dear god.  As a writing exercise, I do indeed understand the point.  Honestly I do.  As the reader though, I always find myself wanting more.  100 words is just never enough.  200, yeah that still isn't cutting it.  Ficlets, while adorable in name, are still short as hell.  I'm still generally left wanting.  So I guess, this is my feeling:  as writing exercises, they are brilliant.  Really brilliant.  Requires pin point focus.  Makes you give all your attention to one moment, one instance, one feeling.  As a developing tool, it works nicely.  For a reader, I just get annoyed.  More writing I say!  I want to read more.  I've actually become quite the fan of the lengthy fic of late...

Third, Palex is on my radar again.  I swear, I'm not watching Degrassi.  I'm just not.  I don't care if Alex has finally declared her love for Paige.  I don't care that the angst is lovely.  I don't care that Paige almost told Alex that she loved her too.  I swear. So I watched Free Fallin' parts 1 and 2.  So I went looking for...whatever the hell the name of 6x16 is.  Yeah I watched the declaration clip a couple of times.  I don't care.  So maybe I kinda sorta like.  Maybe I think they could possibly be cute.  Maybe I thought that last season too.  So what?  I know, I know.  I get sucked into like every single les storyline that exists.  I would never go on and on about them like BAM or Spashley, or even Sam/Brooke or Fuffy.  I just think...they have potential.  And there certainly is plenty of room for angst there.  Being less connected to the characters makes the angst a bit more enjoyable.  So there's that.

Fourth, I rediscovered my love of Kaylee/Inara.  I can't believe I forgot about them.  I know tons of peeps ship Kaylee/River, not my cup of tea.  Kaylee and Inara always had this easy comfort.  Do I honestly think there's any subtext there?  Well, I haven't watched Firefly in ages and I didn't finish Serenity but I know they didn't talk much at all.  So, I don't really feel like I can address the subtext issue.  I need to rewatch Firefly.  Then, maybe.  Doesn't matter much to me.  I've always liked the idea of Kaylee/Inara.  I can't remember what exactly got me to browsing fanfic this morning but I ended up reading some nice bits that reminded me just how much potential they could have.

Fifth, I really need new avatars.  I need a Firefly av...well, at least a Kaylee av.  A Kaylee/Inara av would be lovely.  I also need a soccer av.  I've got plenty of girls...I just need to choose a pic and make an av.  I just keep talking about new things and don't have the avs for them.  But they are things I'll be talking about...so I should have an av for them.

Closing...without any sort of introspection or any real ship discussion.  Yeah, I know I talked about Palex and Kaylee/Inara, but there was no depth.  It so doesn't count...